It's ok, to not be ok.

It's ok, to not be ok.

A person's initial response to feeling low is to fight it, you kid yourself. Pretend like everything's ok, you can handle it. Because you can't afford to not be at 100%, too much depending on you-- this is bad. You go through your days as if you're fine, trying even harder at what you do to get some type of self-fulfillment. If I can just do this....obtain this thing, or whatever, I'll be fine. But you usually end up failing because your mood is off, so it effects your work ethic. effects your behavior. Try to do more and things get worse. Then ontop of that, no matter how good you think you are at hiding it the people close to you sense something is wrong...and it grieves them. This is probably worst of it.

That's why I think it's good for people to allow themselves to breakdown. it's good for you. You have to stop trying not to be weak, and remember that you're human. We all go through these hi's and lows, knowing the right decisions to make during these times makes all the difference. So take the time out and put yourself in self-repair mode. If you don't, things will get worse and you'll end up breaking down anyway. Not saying to be quick to throw in the towel, just if you're getting your ass whooped don't pretend like you can win the fight with the same strategy you had when you entered.  

This seems irrelevant, but I recently had a talk about patience with a close friend of mine. I personally hate patience, and feel it's a weak emotion. Only thing that comes to a patient man is time loss and bitter cheese.

My argument was, are we patient because we feel this is the right tactic? or because we have to? because we lack the power/ control over our lives and have no choice but to wait on something else to take action and decide our decisions for us. because we have no choice but to sit and wait, not because we want to. I believe majority of us follow this thought. Then, there's a handful of people who have enough power to where they can make decisions irrelevant of 3rd party actions. but they choose to be patient because this is there way of life. Because this is what they feel is the best decision.

Random, right? yeah, but my point of this is after we had this talk he told me something about myself. He said, "you're never amused, but you're always polite", and I couldn't agree with him more on this comment.

I am Denzel Allen

this is my blog 

and IamInRepair